many / years back the neighbour

raped an intellectually / disabled girl /

in the middle of the forest /

EVERYBODY KNEW AND NOBODY TOLD ANYBODY

about a year back he was walking around the village /

withered and ravaged by drink / with bones sticking out of his body /

his eyes were murky and he couldn’t speak anymore / my mom made supper /

I took it to him / I wasn’t as afraid as I used to be / though I remember /

how he yelled at his wife / whore / dirty / bitch / she died

a few years back / kidney failure /

THE HOUSE WAS A MESS SHIT AND PISS ALL OVER THE PLACE

AND POTATO PEELS AND THE DOG BARKING FROM HUNGER

and during the night he fell from his bed / and hit his head on the floor /

and died / leaving nothing / to his son /

a crumbling farmhouse / and loans

I see him / riding his old moped around the village /

we always say hi to each other / his father used to beat him

silly / before falling off the bed / he threatened him with an axe /

I’ll chop your head off /

we played a lot as children / the rest of us went to school /

and he spat blood every day / until he turned twenty

sosed / je veliko let nazaj
posilil sredi gozda / punco z motnjami/
v duševnem razvoju /

VSI SO VEDELI IN NIHČE NI NIKOMUR POVEDAL

kakšno leto nazaj se je sprehajal po vasi /
shiran in uničen od pijače / kosti so mu gledale iz telesa /
imel je motne oči in ni znal več govoriti / mati je skuhala kosilo /
sem mu nesla / ni me bilo tako strah kot včasih / čeprav se spomnim /
ko se je drl na svojo ženo / kuzla /prasica / si gnila / umrla je
nekaj let nazaj / odpoved ledvic /

HIŠA JE BILA RAZMETANA POVSOD DREKI IN SCANJE
OLUPKI KROMPIRJA IN PES JE LAJAL OD LAKOTE

ponoči pa je padel s postelje / se udaril z glavo ob tla /
in umrl / svojemu sinu je pustil / nič /
razpadajoča kmetija / in dolgovi

vidim ga / vozi se po vasi s svojo štirko /
vedno se pozdraviva / oče ga je tepel ko
prasca / preden je padel s postelje / grozil mu je s sekiro /
odsekal ti bom glavo /

kot otroci smo se veliko igrali / ostali smo šli v šolo /
vsak dan do dvajsetega leta / je on pljuval kri